i'm hearing the wedding bells calling me...well there has been much talks abt weddings and getting married around me these few days..firstly it was with my gfs, then with my elder bro and lastly with dearie (ehem2)..non has already posted her thoughts abt it on her blog, so i guess its my turn to contribute my two cents..(this entry has nthg to do with the living or dead..any resemblence is purely coincidental..so jgn nak terasa eh whoever is reading this..kwang3)
at 21, we would be considered adults who are matured enough to think of getting married and settling down..dat is if we were living during our parents' time..my dad told me, at my age, he was already supporting his family financially since he's the eldest, with seven siblings..having a steady gf was never an option for him during his sch years (dat was supposed to be a hint2 for me n bro..hehe)
but i always say to my dad, times have changed and we cant afford to be like him.. nowadays, almost everybody i noe is already having gf/bf eventho they are still studying..my parents are quite conservative when it comes to this bgr thingy..they might know dat i already have a bf but they just kept quiet abt it..unlike other parents who would love to meet and invite their children's bf/gf over to their homes..i guess they just dun wanna show that they are encouraging me to pursue a relationship now..my elder bro still get nags from them when he goes out with his fiancee..they will start preaching abt the halal and haram stuffs..but as parents, i feel that they're just fulfilling their responsibilities and i respect that
anyhoos, back on the issue abt marriage, i have a confession to make..i used to fantasize marrying my prince charming, who shld be at least three years older than me, and live happily ever after, after two years once i start working..and after one year of marriage, i'll be blessed with a beautiful baby, walking along orchard rd, pushing a baby stroller with my hubby by my side..(dats how early i got my motherly instincts..gosh!)..see, how accurate im trying to be with the figures, planning my future..haha but that was during my early teenage years, where perfectionist is my middle name..but as i was growing up(still am), blossoming into a fair lady(hehe), i realised how impt it is to adjust my so-called fantasies and take things as it is
a lot of things is going on ard me..seeing my bro getting engaged made me feel dat "gosh, i wished it was me who's getting engaged!" n with aisah getting married next year, i sometimes wished that my bf is stable enough to get married to me! its not a matter of jealousy, but its just a good feeling to see couples marrying earlier..n i dun mean marrying just because the girl is carrying his illegitimate child! mebbi its just me, who's all so feeling2 abt marriage..or mebbi its also a girl's thing?i dunno..
as for me, marriage is still far..my gfs predicted that im the first to get hitched among us..i wished girls! i really wish..haha but looking at things at the present moment,with dearie just started his work and having to support his family financially, i shall put my wedding fantasies on hold for the time being..as much as i wanna settle down early, its also hard if the guy is nt ready financially..cos he's the one saving up for the dowry and all..i dun wanna get married early if we're nt mentally prepared for the challenges ahead..n truthfully, i get all smitten whenever he mentions abt marriage..knowing that he is working so hard to save up for his 'future', i feel so kesian for him..i guess god
jodohkan me n him to make me realise how impt it is not to take life's simplicity for granted..i must say that eversince im with dearie, i've learnt to be more independent and be thankful for wat i have..cos other ppl have to struggle to have a life that im leading now
in a nutshell,i shall conclude by saying dat i wanna get married n have kids but not now..hehe
so abt the title of this entry, i forgot to end it with a "not"...hehehe
~flew by @ 2:58 PM
